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As I struggle with my blog issues: do I want to continue to blog?, if I continue, what direction do I want this blog to go in?, will a drastic change mean less of you coming along for the ride?, etc, I do know one thing in this sea of uncertainty...
I know I want this area of the Internets to be a nice place to be. Maybe not super 'Suzy Sunshine' at all times, but nice. Basically, I want to share what I think would interest you. Things that keep me going back to blogs that I read. Let's face it, blogging is narcissistic. I read this once somewhere, "Nowadays anyone with a crap laptop and an Internet connection can sound their barbaric yawp, whatever it may be.". I can't remember where, but it's true. This is a me, me, me culture, and I never thought I'd fall pray to it. This blog has evolved so much in the last 2 years, and I'm not happy with the place it is currently.
I look back on all the posts, and really have mixed feelings. Sometimes I'm so whiny, sometimes too boastful, opinionated, self-righteous, even proud. Seasons of life, I suppose. Because there are the funny posts, the informative posts, the moments of good writing or pretty photos.
I don't think I'm great, but I'm okay. And okay, is good. Okay IS great. Okay is a happy place to be. I want everyone to think that their mediocre okay life is just as awesome as I think mine is. Perspective. Okay is the new cool. That's what I want everyone to take away from here. Okay is super. There is beauty and amazingness in okay. And, if I can't succeed in doing that, well, I will close up shop. Just because I can arrange a mantel vignette or shoot my camera in manual mode, I assure you, there is nothing extraordinary about me.
Maybe during this trial period I'll get that loving feeling back for the blog. Maybe not. But, whatever happens, I'll be okay. Okay is good. Okay is great. Okay is super.